~Alley~

alleycat27 @ 2007-05-24T22:30:00

2007-05-25T02:45:45Z

Yeah I never update, but I figure i should for the important stuff- so i can capture how I'm feeling at certain important moments of my life.

I guess the last day of high school is kinda important?

I just don't know how to feel right now. I KNOW i never wanna repeat high school ever again, but theres just so many things I will miss. Food Friday in our chem class, sullivans crazy stories, Ms Obrien, english class in general, lunch with ervin erik and alainna. I'm going to miss band too-i know its not the same, band always changes. The group seemed much more different after 2005 cause all my friends left, but i found new ones...and now band seems like its changed again. I've dedicated my life to that department for the past 5 years and i've changed so much by just being in the program. I hope they do remember me though, and I hope i really did do something good for all of them. If anything, Ceara promises to keep up the Ashleys Arm Rub. I'm going to miss our flute sectionals- they were reallly the best section ever and I love each and every one of them. Our picnic before the first show, our stupid variatons of white houses, tuning (okay maybe not the piccolos).I don't know, maybe its a good thing im leaving. Well I know it is, but theres a lot of things I dont want to lose. Physica class doing absolutely nothing with Hai Tony Rajdeep and Duyen. Long Tran- he wrote the nicest yearbook commet to me and I almost cried. Zlatan's questions. Mike Ela and Eric Nyman hitting me with a tennis ball. Actualy thats weird, I've known Eric for 6 years and to never see him again will be weird. Jackie Hegner...she's probably my oldest friend. And I hate taht we don't talk much anymore- i really really miss her and I just wish we were as close as we used to be. I just think that we always understood each other and I could tell her just about anything. I feel like its my fault too, I dunno. Maybe its no ones fault that stuff just knda happens. Words can't even explain how much I miss Jamie too. We were the best of friends and everytime i think about how things used to be back then i start crying. Theres just so amny things to remember. Like...in Crime and Punishment (you know the book that i actually read), it talked about how the character was constnatly trying to remember something he had forgotten. It seems like I do that too though. I try to conserve every memory, I'm always afraid of forgetting things I once found so special. But, we all have hundred of thousnads of memories so its impossible to remember every last one of them. Its just sad knowing that things change and you can't really stop them from changing. I know I'll like Northeastern, but I'm just afraid to let go of high school. As much as i disagree with a lot of things around there, I think I had one of the best high school experiences ever. Anyway, I'm rambling...but I figured id just put my feelings into words so I could try to understand how I'm feeling right now. And this will be good when i want to look back and remember parts of my life. Maybe I'll upsdate more often, but probably not. The journal idea is a good thign though and i should keep up with it, i always look back on old entires and laugh, cry, and think about how things were back then. But now i should probably go and get some sleep.

alleycat27 @ 2006-04-04T21:24:00

2006-04-05T01:44:10Z

Not much to update on....percussion. school. work. Thats just about it...more so percussion than anything. I guess I'm going to France next year, fun stuff. Alainnas coming with me and Erik and Lindana might too. I think i'd really enjoy it although i wish i was going to italy...ohio in two weeks. its kinda crazy. I mean it seems lke indoors lasted forever, but when its over it seems like it was all a flash. its been an insane season to say the least. I really dont know how well we'll do in ohio, but i really dont care. I just want to have a good final performance, considering it could very well be my last. Imagine that? Eh Ervin says i cant quit my senior year...theyd be out two marimba ones..and an instructor. Ew. well i dont know what matts planning on doing but if everyone leaves i doubt he'll come back. id hate to leave my senior year, but i know i need the money for school and i really want to go to europe next year. I cant do it all...and i already spent four years dedicated to indoor. but i wont think about that now. this season isnt even over yet. Its amazing how fast junior year is going by i think....ugh, im failing math..but thats beside the point. It really wasnt as bad as i thought itd be. These last few months are going to be nuts....preparing for the aps and sats and everything. I need to buy more books tomorrow online. I have my ap bio book ive been looking at a bit....i should start studying now because i know i wont in ohio..and its only four weeks away. i heard the ap test is much harder than the sat twos, but ill just prepare for it as much as i can. then ill take the regualar sats in june....try to get all that out of the way. anyway, since im trying to procastinate and cheer myself up, ill write about the fun things that are hopefully in store in the next couple of weeks... Friday- most likely applebees with dan....=) Saturday- practice till 6...and i hope im going out after Sunday- Percussion finals! =) Tuesday- college fair at bayside expo..im really looking forward to that...get to check out what all the schools are about. Thursday- last day of school before break! Friday- getting my nails done with Lindana and probably going out for lunch before work. I know we have practice 6-10 but i cant call out of work since i am the following friday. like mr q tells me "we gave you a fixed schedule for a reason".... Saturday- Dartmouth night of percussion. heh last time i went me and malika were drooling over stan! lol Sunday- I'm supposed to be working...since I cant next week, but who knows? Also I'm trying to incorporate some Lindana Ashley shopping time =P. Monday- working again, i hope..if all goes well. Then movies with Zlaty and Lindana. Tuesday- packing up and leaving for ohio!! =D Events for May Prom? Sats AP test National Honor Society Induction WICKED WITH JACKIE AND LINDANA! Uhhh MCAS? Driving School And probably much much more.

alleycat27 @ 2005-12-24T11:22:00

2005-12-24T16:25:43Z

I will update tonight. I promise. If I survive Walgreens that is. lol. Yay for working with Dan Nalini and the ever so lovely Mr Modrano. He SO got creeped out by me the other day. Fucking awesome. I told him he looked hot in black. Cause he always wears these dumb gray pants.....and last night he wore black and he looked very nice. then i was rocking my sanata hat. lol. even mr h didnt piss me off too much. Lol I FINALLY TOLD HIM HE WAS CALLING ME NANCY. He felt all bad and shit. Oh well, i called him Mr I for like, a week...so i guess its fair. Anwayy, ill update abut things later on..hopefully i can manage to get away at my aunts and write something.

alleycat27 @ 2005-11-19T10:08:00

2005-11-19T15:10:11Z

I should really update more.....I think I will once I get home. That and my nicenet post. =)

Random thoughts before I get ready though

College shit
What the fucks gonna happen in a year and a half?
Well...i already know, but how its gonna work?
Shit I need to get those oranges for band
I need to get my permit reprinted
So I can get a bank account
So I can cash my checks
Me and Zlatan are going to see Harry Potter soon =)
Percussion is promising.
Auditions are next week
We have NO time to practice =(
I'm working Thanksgiving
I HAD CHOCOLATE AND PEANUT BUTTER SHIT IN ITALIAN! (lol Rajdeep)
My clothes better be done by 11, cause I have nothing to wear.

alleycat27 @ 2005-11-17T21:33:00

2005-11-18T02:33:12Z

haha i work with THE funniest people.....

alleycat27 @ 2005-10-23T10:37:00

2005-10-23T14:47:23Z

Sigh....im so sad.....my sunday is going to SUCKKKKKK.

alleycat27 @ 2005-09-18T20:20:00

2005-09-19T00:23:27Z

Wow....fuck life right now. F.U.C.K. I.T.

I really can't stand anyone right now.

Thanks to Lindana....I think I might go take your advice this week. I'm really scared though.

Thanks to Eder who can always cheer me up and help me get through it. Whatever it happens to be.

A big thanks to Jackie...sorry i was so out of it today. I appreciate all you're doing to try to help. And I really don't know what I'd do without you.

alleycat27 @ 2005-09-10T18:15:00

2005-09-10T22:18:22Z

In NH. kinda bored, wish Ryan would sign on, i hope we hang out tomorrow, I was wicked stupid last night, wtf is wrong with me, Shawns hockey game is tomorrow, should do my nicenet thing, lol the terrorits, (not being anti american, remmebering lindanas converastion), kinda miss being good friends with eder, kinda miss being friends with other people too, grrr why are my parents nazis, eriks hamster is gansta.

Can't wait for tomorrow!!

2005-07-21T21:57:17Z

Hehehe I just came back from seeing RYAN, CHRISTINE, CHRIS, AND ALEX!! =) I miss them a lot...lol, espically Alex and Ryan...i talk to Chris Williams all the time online, but it was still awesome hanging out wtih him again. I cant wait to see the performance tomorrow. They're coming down at 3 whcih is ridiculously early..but good in a way 'cause we gotta be there at 5. Lindana is gonna come wtih me to watch them in the parking lot and stuff. I love the Everett show....its the last show before tour and I get to see both corps people and everett people again. Hehehe and its Ryans birthday tomorrow. ^_^. ANNNDDD after the show I get to sleep over the lovely Sarahs house. I'm so excited!!

alleycat27 @ 2005-06-17T17:21:00

2005-06-17T21:22:14Z

Wootness....Vermont for Father's Day....be back on Sunday with an update of this week.

alleycat27 @ 2005-05-21T18:32:00

2005-05-21T22:38:46Z

Well practice was interesting. Very cold so we kinda stayed in Matt Ts car for a bit once we realized the pit couldnt possibly practice without damaging the instruments. I dontk now what happened with Alainna....sigh...we waited for like 25 mins then my dad had to go get our modem so then we came back at like 1 and waited a bit more then while i called everyone to see where she was. They ended practice early casue of the coldness. And our drumline is playing back up for will smith at kiss concert. I guess the guys from the DNC recommemded us. They get VIP passes and everything- and they arent even excited! lol. I guess the rain kinda dampened everyones spirits. Lol practice was certianly interesting. Got a new side of Mr Tavares I havent seen before. Heh, it seems whenever i'm stuck, he's always there. Wow, its a concept or something. Me and Jamie talked last night at the musical. I'm glad we're okay because I really did miss being friends with her. We need to do something soon....=) Anyway, off to make dinner and dry off somehow.

And I almost had you...I almost wished you were to love me too

2005-04-23T00:23:12Z

Woot! Yay going to the mall with the breakfast club! I'm so happy. This vacation seems to be shaping up....too bad its almost over and i stil have a million things to do for homework. =(

Anyway, I told Sarah id update (who is awesome btw)..but im really really tired and so out of it right now. But I will make a more lengthy (is that even grammatically correct?) post tomorrow after hanging out with Sarah and Alainna.

alleycat27 @ 2005-04-10T17:22:00

2005-04-10T21:37:54Z

Wow....it feels like the whole season just kinda swept past me these past few days. This weekend was really awesome- the best weekend of the year by far. We got so much done, and it was like old times. I miss enjoying percussion. I just wish we could have that type of situation all the time. I was almost sad that we did our last run through in the field house about an hour ago. Only because I think we could have done a lot more. I was kinda disappointed I guess. I'm SO happy Matt Tavares came to help us out. Even lino said its awesome hes here cause the pit is so much clearer. I just wish we could have worked on America the Beautiful more with him....but there just wanst enough time. Heh, time. In a week, this is allll over. But I guess its not really the end. Lol two weeks from today is rehersal for Citations--and the cycle continues. Matt told me about the crazy stuff he's adding in and im really looking forward to it. The nice weather got me excited....and I'll have Alainna with me this summer which is even better! I just hope I end up getting a job too...i really really need one. This summer is going to be the best ever if I do. That means I'll get to stay home all summer long and not deal with NH much, just me, myself, and I in Everett for two months. Ohhh the possibilites =)

Since everyone else is doing this...

2005-04-08T19:19:53Z

Yeah, I did course selections today-- I really hope all the scheduling works out.
I put down:
Italian III ALC
English III ALC
Biology AP (GRRR JAMIE! JK JK)
Chemistry ALC
Humanities
Pre Calculus ALC
US History III (Wtf....) ALC

Fun stuff, Shannon says I'll spaz out....but I dont think I will. All I know right now is im fucked up and need to get my priorities straight. I feel so bad for screwing Zlatan and Alainna over-- all for nothing too. =(

alleycat27 @ 2005-03-31T21:25:00

2005-04-01T02:24:48Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Ashley
Birthday:	June 27...1989. Grrr
Birthplace:	Malden
Current Location:	Everett
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5 7
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Righty
Your Heritage:	Danish, Irish, Scottish...
The Shoes You Wore Today:	I wear my K-Swiss bitches
Your Weakness:	I dont stand up for myself
Your Fears:	Getting caught, people being insincere...
Your Perfect Pizza:	Lots of cheese and CHICKEN
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	I'd like to win a medal to hang on my group picture this year....somehow. Oh yeah, and Id like to get a job and drive
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	School or band?? AND WHY!!!
Your Best Physical Feature:	My boobs! lol. I dunno, I like my eyes.
Your Bedtime:	Whenever.
Your Most Missed Memory:	San Diego, Niner Two, and the fun parts of tour
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Buger King
Single or Group Dates:	Single!
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Both
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	No
Do you Swear:	Fuckers...
Do you Sing:	only in the shower
Do you Shower Daily:	...Do I sing daily?
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	Yup
Do you want to get Married:	Ahuh
Do you belive in yourself:	Sometimes....recently I've been really trying to
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No...lol you kinda can't if you're gonna be on a bus for three weeks
Do you think you are Attractive:	Sometimes. Then other times I look like shit
Are you a Health Freak:	No. lol. I be likin' the junk food
Do you get along with your Parents:	Eh sometiems, not usually though
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes
Do you play an Instrument:	Yup
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No
In the past month have you Smoked:	No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No, a guys house...but not a date.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yup
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Thankfully no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Yeah
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Not this month
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	No
Ever been called a Tease:	Probably
Ever been Beaten up:	No
Ever Shoplifted:	Heh, a couple of time for stupid stuff..I'll admit. But not this year.
How do you want to Die:	No
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Forensic Scientist
What country would you most like to Visit:	Italy
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Blonde or brown...doesnt really matter though
Short or Long Hair:	Short
Height:	An inch or two taller than me
Weight:	I dunno! Not fat...not too skinny.
Best Clothing Style:	Hahaha, stripped shirts from Bannana Repulic
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None
Number of CDs I own:	A ton
Number of Piercings:	Just ears
Number of Tattoos:	Non
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Too many...
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

alleycat27 @ 2005-02-28T23:22:00

2005-03-01T04:24:50Z

You know what?? It took me 4 years to realize something that my lil' Sammy just advised me to do. "Dont sweat the small stuff. Life is pretty freakin long and you're not gonna remember every stupid thing you wasted a lot of your time being upset over"

Wow, things really are THAT easy. Thanks Sam Bates...who apparently wants to have oral with me =P

alleycat27 @ 2005-02-26T23:08:00

2005-02-27T04:18:29Z

I feel as if I've been stabbed in the heart and spit on. I'm sitting here, crying uncontrollably because I care way too much. I'm sorry I care about one of my best friends, who apparently thinks im a major stupid annoying bitch. I'm sorry all i want to do is be friends with him and just forget about all the stupid shit thats happend these past few weeks. And most of all, I'm sorry for even doing this season, because all its brought me are moments like these where all I can do is sit here and cry. I guess Sammys right, I should just fuck it all. I LOVE it when people promise you they'd be there, but then when you REALLY need them, they turn your back on you. It just sucks that the person that for the past three years ive thanked my lucky stars for, in the end just couldnt give a fuck. And that hurts more than any other horrible thing thats happened this past week. Gr.

alleycat27 @ 2005-02-23T22:51:00

2005-02-24T04:00:14Z

Yayyy my computers fixed!! Lol I spent today bascially doing nothing. Cept eating. =) I had pancakes, muffins, AND chicken brocolli and zitt. All my favorite things ever. Since I was bitching about my computer and having to do all my essays, my mom let Eder come over and fix it. It was cool. He got me a little farther in Mario 64, and got my hat back. =P Shawn wants to adopt him cause he thinks he's so cool. Lol Ms Yebba called my house telling me I owed money still, then she called Eders cell right after. So he picked up and was like..yes Ms Yebba I know. I heard you talking to Ashleys mom. She thought it was funny. I was glad my mom didnt care about him coming over on such short notice, even though she seemed a little upset today. She even left to take Shawn to hockey, leaving us alone for like 15 minutes, which is a major step for my mom. lol. I can play Half Life now!!! Im so excited. So yeah, i didnt get any of my essays done today. Ooops. =) Oh well, I'll find time somehow, I always do. Even if its then night before =P. I should probably work on my lines in a bit...so me and Alainna can practice them for Thursday. We start competing this week. The first show is this Sat in Wareham, which apparently is pretty far away. I just hope we dont stay for all of it. The awards are about four hours after our show....and I really should work on those essays. Sunday should be fun. I'll get to see all my old friends and stuff from different cities. And Matt T =) I cant wait for him to see our show. He'll give me an honest opinion. Anyway, it should be fun....espically after going through this long week.

Unlimited.....together we're unlimited

2005-02-20T01:28:21Z

(Elphaba) I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...

(Glinda) I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

(Elphaba) It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

(Glinda) Because I knew you

(Both) I have been changed for good

(Elphaba) And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the thing I've done you blame me for

(Glinda) But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

(Both) And none of it seems to matter anymore

(Glinda) Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood

(Elphaba) Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

(Both) Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

(Glinda) And because I knew you...

(Elphaba) Because I knew you...

(Both) Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good.

Thats friggin beautiful. Thanks Linh =) I heart the Wicked Soundtrack. I need to go and see this musical so I can go and cry my eyes out.

HA! How interesting...

2005-01-28T19:57:07Z

You Are 21 Years Old

21

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

alleycat27 @ 2005-01-06T17:16:00

2005-01-06T22:21:26Z

So much for an enjoyable snow day....

Missed the ski trip, Dante, Tanya, Germany, skating, sunday, college, MIT, Cookies, snowmen, wtf, not worth it, someday, priorities, best you'll ever get, Jamie, right again, nothing to do, Citations, pictures, wow I had short hair, Old Navy, Rachel, SHE DISSED YOU, argh randomness, aggravation, lonliness, crying, confusing, typing, make up your mind, "im sorry darling", secrets, by accident, keep mouth shut, kiss, guilt, your mom....

And no, I can't see the two of us together. Sorry.

alleycat27 @ 2004-11-16T15:35:00

2004-11-16T20:48:02Z

Life is good....as Dante's shirt says. I've got everything I need. People that care, percussion seasons looking up, and I think I figured out what I want to do now. I've finally made up my mind about a few things. lol..some might still change, but after a bit of thought....and a bit of common sense, I generally know what to do to make myself happy and NOT do stupid things that screw me over.

For Jamie, my best friend =)

2004-11-13T00:03:20Z

If I could
I'd protect you from the sadness in your eyes
Give you courage and a world of compromise
Yes, I would...

If I could
I would teach you all the things I've never learned
And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned
Yes, I would...

If I could
I would help you make it through the hungry years
But I know that I can never cry your tears
But I would
If I could...

If I knew
I would try to change the world I brought to you to
And there isn't very much that I can do
But I would
If I could...

And if you ever... ever need
A shoulder to cry on
I'm just someone to talk to
I'll be there... I'll be there
I didn't change your world
But I would
If I Could!

For Jamie....

2004-11-12T23:59:52Z

If I could
I'd protect you from the sadness in your eyes
Give you courage and a world of compromise
Yes, I would

If I could
I would teach you all the things I've never learned
And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned
Yes, I would

If I could
I would help you make it through the hungry years
But I know that I can never cry your tears
But I would
If I could

If I knew
I would try to change the world I brought to you to
And there isn't very much that I can do
But I would
If I could...

And if you ever... ever need
A shoulder to cry on
I'm just someone to talk to
I'll be there... I'll be there
I didn't change your world
But I would
If I Could!

alleycat27 @ 2004-11-08T17:16:00

2004-11-08T22:40:28Z

Wtf, drum corps, sunday with anna, sunday with eder, ho win palace, AAS Crew, two in the morning, alcohol, marinade, WHY DO I ALWAYS GET THE WEIRD GUYS, paraniod, precal, futile- word of the week, as long as your mine, WINNING, Maldens gay, BOOTLEG!, high percussion, motherfuckers!, idagai ldagove ydagou, multiplying matrices is pointless, peacoats are cool, anna and steph-- good times, jamie, upset, disappointed, really confused, 93.1, bretts aunt, Steve, Kory, he told you he liked me?!, tour-- screwed up, wish people were honest, cold, practice all week, saturday, kick ass, crying, hugging, great performer, jackie, embracing, love, crying on matt ts jacket, gonna miss him so much, whos our pit teacher now???, mellophone, in between pradeep and dante, Dante crying, me losing my voice, "hey you guys are hot", walking home, head of state, halloween, trick or treating, jamie and tony/jack and sally, eders abusive!, OLAY!, sex, not going to florida, brass rehersal, section leader, we give FEEDBACK, "maybe we did it wrong...lol", percussion meeting, i miss you, HOLY CLEOPATRA, so wait..you actually inhale the cocaine? YUCK, my friend linh, flute section, ALL HAVE BOYFRIENDS, Kieth and Johnny, Tewksbury, and in first place, four seater, "I'm tired", squirrels dont have sex with trees, peeling potatoes, Ms K better not teach us, I want mr tavares, stupid people, fake, WHATS GOING ON?, just talk to me, student of the month, Ashley Ashley and Steph-- 5 extra points for the sexy soloists, Eder going bald--10 points for looking like a cancer patient, Linhs so horny, do you want to be with me??, say something, ive been so lazy, math poster, havent started, dirty nursery rhymes, what are they smoking?, looks like everyones happy, whens it my turn?